I can relate with this feeling of bursting at the seams with an internal scream. However, for me it is not the holiday or the transition. I respond so well to transitions. They remind me that nothing is permanent and there is relief and growth. Its the long winter or summer that gets to me. They wear me out. The flip side is I am already trying to steady myself for those times when I will be overcome by intense feelings and depression. Trying to stave them off but I know they will come. I hope they don’t stay long. Thank you for sharing this beautiful and honest sentiment.